Entry for Shiva Queen's contest

I had so much fun entering this contest with my lovely friend Nea! We woke up early so we could make this before the sun goes down.. And we managed to do everything just in time! While we were filming and taking pictures of our Valentine's looks, it became dark.. But we  filmed and took pictures enough before it.

When we were taking those sequins off our face, I was afraid I might lose my eyebrow! But luckily I didn't..Haha.

It took a long time to edit the video, and when we finally finished and started saving it.. Windows Movie Maker got stuck.. "No reply" it said for like 30 mins then we closed it.. I was afraid we have to do it all again but luckily it had saved most of the work we had done!



What do you think? No make up used at all.

busy but happy

 I got a new school timetable on Monday and I have only long days at school for at least the next two months! Every day starts at 8.. and lasts mostly till 16. I'm glad to finally get rid of my previous timetable, I had mostly short school days. I didn't like it. Especially Thursdays and Fridays.. It was so frustrating to wake up so early (at 6) and get ready (shower, dress up, make up, hair...) for only 2 hours of school. It made rest of the day feel so long..

Only thing I might have a problem with now is waking up so early.. At 5 every morning! Well, I'll get used to it.. I just must start going to bed lots of earlier than I'm used to. I managed to live through the short school days even when I was tired.. But 8 hours at school + trying to stay awake in the bus, no thanks. I'd rather change my sleep pattern.. Even though I love nights and wouldn't want to waste them sleeping..

Anyway.. I'm pleased with my new timetable, because I really like being at school! Time goes by much faster when I'm there. My classmates are awesome! And I'm interested in studying, I really want to learn to sew! And for once, I'm at school because I want to be there, it was my choice, I'm not there because I'm forced to be there. The school is the only thing that makes me stay in this country for the next couple of years..

There's just so much to do in my life now but no time enough! It's just so weird.. Why can't I have a balance in life? It's always like this, either I'm very busy or I have absolutely nothing to do.. Well, being busy it's much better than the emptiness..

Shiva Queen's new contest

It's Valentine's day creative contest. As he (Christian/Shiva Queen) said earlier on facebook and twitter, this isn't a regular make up contest..

You have to create a look using anything but make up! The colours you have to use are pink and black.

That sounds challenging and interesting! Christian told me to enter it too.. and I'm thinking about it. I just doubt I'm artistic and creative enough? But I might be doing it anyway, it could be fun.. Especially if I do it with a friend!

We'll see.. There's time left till 14th of February.

You only live twice

Lately I've been spending too much time doing nothing. I'm always dreaming about the future.. or the opposite, thinking about the past.. I need to change this. I don't mean I should stop dreaming or forget about the past.. But what has happened, it was then, and I won't ever get those times back, no matter how much I wished. There's nothing wrong with dreaming but I just have to start living in this moment too!

I was recently talking with a friend on facebook, about our mutual facebook friend, how he's lucky enough to have life outside of facebook too, lots of friends and parties and stuff like that... And my friend said "yeah.. our life will be like that too, when we're living in London". ... Really? Are we going to waste all these years doing nothing until we move to London? What am I waiting for.. Why wouldn't I start living now! Life's too short for always doing nothing and just waiting for the future.. As Marc Almond sang,

 


"You only live twice,
or so it seems,
one life for yourself,
and one for your dreams"




So why not to take everything out of the both lives we have.. Enjoy living in this moment. Dream.. and make the dreams come true!

Well.. I've often thought about it.. But that's my problem, I'm always thinking of changing my attitude to life and doing something but it always remains only as a thought, I never actually do anything I've planned I would.. But now I've had enough of this.. I'll do something about it!

Naked Civil Servant

On Saturday night I watched the film Naked Civil Servant. It's based on Quentin Crisp's autobiography, which is also called, surprisingly, Naked Civil Servant. I have the book too, my mum bought it for me last summer. But for some reason, I had difficulties when I was trying to read it. Maybe I just could't concentrate.. or there were used too many unfamiliar words.. or maybe it was just a too strange experience for me, to read something I haven't ever read before, as I'm always reading the same books over and over again. I was so frustrated because I couldn't understand everything of this book, so I stopped reading and I still haven't read it till the end..

Anyway, I borrowed the film from a library. I couldn't find it at first, because all the films are in alphaphetical order there and I was looking for it under 'N'.. Naked Civil Servant. It didn't occur to me that I should be looking under 'P', I had no idea that the film has a finnish name too. Anyway.. I finally found and borrowed it. When I got home, the first thing I wanted to do was to check if the film is black-and-white! But yeah, it's a coloured film despite the video tape looking so old.

 I really liked the film! I admire Quentin Crisp. He seemed to be a very interesting man. And it wasn't easy to be an effeminate gay in those times.. But he was who he was, no matter what people thought about it!

Take It Like A Man

The autobiography of Boy George. I just finished reading it. Again. I've read it countless times since I bought it in 2007.

But I never get bored with it! There's always something new to me.. Each time I've read it, has been different from the others. I'm always thinking like "hey, this wasn't here last time!"

My ability to read english has improved a lot since 2007. I don't have to check every word from a dictionary anymore. Reading with a dictionary used to be so frustatingly slow!

When I've read the book for the few first times, I had no idea who are people like Marilyn, Steve Strange, David Bowie and others.. For me, they were just characters in the book. But later on I've found out more about them, I've been listening to David Bowie and Visage.. And I used to be friends with Marilyn on youtube.. So what I meant to say is, that knowing who George is talking about in the book, it makes the reading experience different too.

Yeah. I just absolutely love this book! ♥

mind the gap

It's been 3 weeks since I got back from London. Can't believe it... 3 weeks?! It has felt like more than 3 months! Time goes by so slowly..

I miss London... I'm so looking forward to the next time I'm going there, which is as soon as possible. But don't know yet when.. Maybe in summer? I hope. Especially if there happens to be Dead Or Alive's tour in UK then! That's what I've heard there would be.. Yay. But really, now when I'm thinking about everything that happened few weeks ago in London.. It was like a dream! Luckily I've some pictures to prove me it was real!


I'm just so unhappy here in the freezing Finland.. Someone please, come and rescue me.. Warm me up.. Take me away, or show me how to enjoy my life here.. Make me happy.. Please?

cocos chocolate balls and get away with murder

My mum used to make cocos chocolate balls when we were young. But once, about ten years ago, when it was my or my little brother's birthday, we ate those cocos chocolate balls far too much ang got sick.. And after that mum has never made them again.

A while ago when my dad came home from abroad and brought some chocolate bars for us, Bounty bars reminded me of the cocos chocolate balls I used to love as a child..

And today, I made cocos chocolate balls..  Looks delicious, don't they! Yummy..

Yesterday was the premiere of Jeffree Star's music video, Get Away With Murder. I love the song, and the video too. It's fierce.. And it reminds me of Pete Burns! The hair, the eyepatch..



















I'm gonna break your heart and get away with murder
You should've known from the start that it wouldn't last forever
I can't control myself - I feel like someone else
I'm gonna break your heart and get away with murder

unusual morning after a sleepless night

I can't even remember when was the last time I've slept well and enough. Over a month ago? Don't know what's wrong with me.. Anyway, last night wasn't much better either. I woke up four times in the middle of night, for nothing. Then after 7 o'clock when I woke up again, I couldn't fall back asleep.. It was so frustrating, lying there in the bed without being able to fall asleep even though I'm so damn tired.

So I got up and decided to do something unusual: go out for a walk with my dog. At 8 in Saturday morning. in winter?? Yes. I have to take the dog out 3 times a day, but usually I don't stay out longer than 5 minutes because it's so cold in winter, I hate it.. Anyway, this morning we went out for over 45-minutes walk! It was freeeezing... About -15°C. I wore clothes almost enough to stay almost warm.. But there's nothing that would keep my face warm! And breathing so freezing air, it hurts too.. When we got home after our walk, my black scarf, hair, eyelashes and eyebrows were all white! Not because of the snow but.. Well, I don't know that word in finnish either, but you know, when it's been a cold night and in the morning the grass is white, but it's not snow that makes it white.. Grass is something I can't see here in winters because of the snow, but anyway.. My face was the same colour than my jacket, red!

I thought about taking my camera with me but I decided not to, I guess it would have died there because it's so freezing! So I took few pictures with my phone, though I usually never use the camera of my phone because of the very bad quality.. But it doesn't look so bad when the pictures are so small!

Heartkiller

It's so strange, HIM used to be one of my favourite bands.. But now, I had no idea their new album will come out in February and there's already new music video and everything. Today I heard the new song for the first time. Heartkiller. I was sitting in the car with my mum and the radio was on but the volume was very low because mum was talking on the phone.. I couldn't hear much what was on the radio but the little I could, it sounded so familiar and I had to turn volume higher.. Yeah, it was HIM. I recognised it was HIM even though I couldn't hear Ville Valo singing yet and I haven't heard that song ever before! But yes, it sounds great! The music video is boring though.. And btw, the picture I attached to this post, it's taken by me on 30th December 2009. It was the first, and the only HIM concert I've been to.

There's just so many great bands.. But I really don't have time for them all! I got all HIM albums.. But the newest one, Venus Doom, which was released like years ago, I haven't listened to it but maybe 3 times ever! I really should listen to HIM someday again.. But I'm so busy with the other amazing bands! Oh.. how easy my life used to be when I was younger.. It was so easy to choose what to listen to as there was only one band I liked! Now there's much more to choose from..